Journal 15

There are many people I miss in my life but the person I miss most is my grandma. She passed away in 2007 from cancer. She died two days before my thirteenth birthday. It was really tough on me because it was the first person I had lost that was really close to me. I was at my grandma;s house a lot when she was alive. Both my parents worked late and I was too young to stay home along. We ended up getting really close. She even took me to Rhode Island for a week just because I wanted to go. She spoiled me a ton. I got so many things.  I was really lucky. I miss my grandma  a lot, especially around Christmas time and around my birthday. This year was really hard because I was turning sixteen and she was not there. She has missed so much in my life but I know she is looking down in spirit.

I think you can miss people even when they are still here. For instance I miss my best friend. We used to be so close and tell each other everything and now we are complete strangers. She hides everything from me and blames me for problems that I have no control over. For example her and her boyfriend breaking up. She blames me for our friendship slowly ending because I got more friends this summer. Even though I get blamed for everything I would still go back to the way things were. We were more than best friends, we were sisters. I think it will take I long time to get our friendship back to what it used to be. Hopefully it will still be there. The good thing about missing this person is she is still here. No matter how mad I get or she gets we will be here for each other. I honestly think by the end of this year things will be back to normal.